Everyone wants greater awareness... Until they don't.

There are lies mixed in at every level of human interaction. The beauty of Human Design is you get to see through all of that. And that's the painful part. You get to a space where you see through all of it, and you still have to live your life. You come down from a very high omniscient place and realize you still have to live mechanically in the flesh. It's deeply depressing at times... To have access to that level of omniscience. Everyone wants greater awareness... Until they don't. They assume that greater awareness leads inevitably to beauty and harmony. And I yearn for that... That's not always the reality, unfortunately. It's all in the mechanics. I've seen it from so many angles at varying depths. One of my I'Ching placements is paraphrased as "a mastery of the collective". Ra transmitted the truth. But he also had to create a penta (a business) to keep going in life. That was his purpose that unveiled itself to him. He found himself on that path, with no choice but to universalize that message. The transmission he received. He had no choice, but to share it. That's his story arc. He lived his purpose, as an individual. Not as a side character in someone else's life story. I understand the mechanics deeply at many levels intricately, and yet I'm a Mental Projector. Anything I've ever tried manifesting/initiating or generating personally eventually fails (3rd line trial and error process for 1st 30 years). Or if I guide/lead others to do the manifesting/initiating it either fails eventually, or the other person becomes successful in some regard and we have a falling out due to bad blood/misunderstandings etc. In all honesty... Due to their ignorance. (They don't understand mechanics. They pass blame without expanding objective awareness, making moral judgments based on what they think they know, how they feel, etc.) And I am uninvited... So I can no longer guide them... Toward a greater understanding of the nature of human interaction and reality. How they intermingle, energetically and physically. So I sit in acceptance when these things happen. So I am uninvited. The others walk away with what I helped them build, more or less.

A gift for them. Nothing to be repaid. Nobody indebted to anyone else. Just the hope of the other seeing what is correct for their unique flowering (not at my expense).

So I'm basically a gold mine that gets used if I don't follow my design to a T. But that is the nature of being a 6th line. That's what transpersonal karma is. I hold no resentments. Only disappointments sometimes, that I have to leave others alone, and/or behind. One of the reasons I exist is to alter the path of the other person, or to reinforce their existing path. However that ends up panning out is attributed to the uncertainty principle. This is simply the afterthought, the introspective portion. The viewing of how this karma of mine works in retrospect with regard to the existence of other human beings I've met along my path. This is the movie. This is the life. I put myself at risk every time I share anything publicly. People want greater awareness... Until they don't. Until it goes against their beliefs systems, their moral codes dictated by society or their not-self minds, their emotional stories, their biases, etc. That's when you know/find out that you aren't in control. Our bodies have trajectories in space, and we are either aware of the character we play in this life, or we become background characters for other people's mental agendas... Love yourself always. -Micah Jacobs